I did not know how fast and easily the old habits could return if I forgot about myself.

Let me say that today I did not over eat and I exercised.

I also listened to the music I enjoy and now am feeling the stress begin to lessen.

I also visualized the way I was succeeding and feeling before I lost the motivation and I am getting back on track.

I do not want to be overweight again this summer.

This is a motivator for me as I worked so hard to get those pounds o

For 2 months I have not been able to keep up the motivation I had to keep on my weight loss program and do my techniques to end anxiety.

I think about what needs to be done and I have all the good intentions but nothing is coming of it all.

I had a talk with myself this morning and realized I have not been listening to my own inner voice.

I discovered why this was happening after I had been doing all the best things for myself.

The information has been all around me and I have been blocking it out.

My mind has not been open for some reason and I had the feeling I was slipping back into the patterns of nearly 3 years ago when I was 66pounds heavier and not motivated and living with isolation and depression.

To have to look at myself under the microscope and admit that somewhere along the way everyone and everything else was getting my attention and I had forgotten about myself.

I even started getting chest pain and had to use the nitro spray to get the pain to subside.

I was working myself up into a frenzy because I was disappointed in the weight I was gaining, the food I was not properly eating and the negative attitude I was developing.

I looked at the programs and the techniques I had been using and felt sad because it all seemed to be slipping away in a big hurry.

It was as if once the backward slide began it took on a momentum go its own and felt like an avalanche of all my work getting buried beneath a pile of overwhelming sadness and let us face it, laziness.

It is easy to claim a loss of motivation but I had to go deeper than that.

Once I had let other people, problems and events take over my life again I could not get back to my own needs.

It was a case of slipping back into my old self and the comfortable place where I did not have to work hard at improving my life.

I got to look at all the information I had laying around about my previous heart attack and all the things I was supposed to be doing.

For example, exercising, eating the best foods and portions as well as working on the stress elimination process.

The stress part is in my mind the most important because if I can manage that the rest will follow.

I did not know how fast and easily the old habits could return if I forgot about myself.

Let me say that today I did not over eat and I exercised.

I also listened to the music I enjoy and now am feeling the stress begin to lessen.

I also visualized the way I was succeeding and feeling before I lost the motivation and I am getting back on track.

I do not want to be overweight again this summer.

This is a motivator for me as I worked so hard to get those pounds of

My mind has not been open for some reason and I had the feeling I was slipping back into the patterns of nearly 3 years ago when I was 66pounds heavier and not motivated and living with isolation and depression.

To have to look at myself under the microscope and admit that somewhere along the way everyone and everything else was getting my attention and I had forgotten about myself.

I even started getting chest pain and had to use the nitro spray to get the pain to subside.

I was working myself up into a frenzy because I was disappointed in the weight I was gaining, the food I was not properly eating and the negative attitude I was developing.

I looked at the programs and the techniques I had been using and felt sad because it all seemed to be slipping away in a big hurry.

It was as if once the backward slide began it took on a momentum go its own and felt like an avalanche of all my work getting buried beneath a pile of overwhelming sadness and let us face it, laziness.

It is easy to claim a loss of motivation but I had to go deeper than that.

Once I had let other people, problems and events take over my life again I could not get back to my own needs.

It was a case of slipping back into my old self and the comfortable place where I did not have to work hard at improving my life.

I got to look at all the information I had laying around about my previous heart attack and all the things I was supposed to be doing.

For example, exercising, eating the best foods and portions as well as working on the stress elimination process.

The stress part is in my mind the most important because if I can manage that the rest will follow.

I did not know how fast and easily the old habits could return if I forgot about myself.

Let me say that today I did not over eat and I exercised.

I also listened to the music I enjoy and now am feeling the stress begin to lessen.

I also visualized the way I was succeeding and feeling before I lost the motivation and I am getting back on track.

I do not want to be overweight again this summer.

This is a motivator for me as I worked so hard to get those pounds o

I looked at the programs and the techniques I had been using and felt sad because it all seemed to be slipping away in a big hurry.

It was as if once the backward slide began it took on a momentum go its own and felt like an avalanche of all my work getting buried beneath a pile of overwhelming sadness and let us face it, laziness.

It is easy to claim a loss of motivation but I had to go deeper than that.

Once I had let other people, problems and events take over my life again I could not get back to my own needs.

It was a case of slipping back into my old self and the comfortable place where I did not have to work hard at improving my life.

I got to look at all the information I had laying around about my previous heart attack and all the things I was supposed to be doing.

For example, exercising, eating the best foods and portions as well as working on the stress elimination process.

The stress part is in my mind the most important because if I can manage that the rest will follow.

I did not know how fast and easily the old habits could return if I forgot about myself.

Let me say that today I did not over eat and I exercised.

I also listened to the music I enjoy and now am feeling the stress begin to lessen.

I also visualized the way I was succeeding and feeling before I lost the motivation and I am getting back on track.

I do not want to be overweight again this summer.

This is a motivator for me as I worked so hard to get those pounds o

Once I had let other people, problems and events take over my life again I could not get back to my own needs.

It was a case of slipping back into my old self and the comfortable place where I did not have to work hard at improving my life.

I got to look at all the information I had laying around about my previous heart attack and all the things I was supposed to be doing.

For example, exercising, eating the best foods and portions as well as working on the stress elimination process.

The stress part is in my mind the most important because if I can manage that the rest will follow.

I did not know how fast and easily the old habits could return if I forgot about myself.

Let me say that today I did not over eat and I exercised.

I also listened to the music I enjoy and now am feeling the stress begin to lessen.

I also visualized the way I was succeeding and feeling before I lost the motivation and I am getting back on track.

I do not want to be overweight again this summer.

This is a motivator for me as I worked so hard to get those pounds o

I did not know how fast and easily the old habits could return if I forgot about myself.

Let me say that today I did not over eat and I exercised.

I also listened to the music I enjoy and now am feeling the stress begin to lessen.

I also visualized the way I was succeeding and feeling before I lost the motivation and I am getting back on track.

I do not want to be overweight again this summer.

This is a motivator for me as I worked so hard to get those pounds off and at the time I made a promise to myself that this would be the last time I was ever going to be heavy.

It was important to my self-esteem how I was looking and it had benefits to my heart as well.

I say all this to let you know we are human and along with our failings come knowledge and the self-power to change.

I needed to open up my mind to what was really bothering me in order to return to my quest to lead an anxiety free life.